Trying to hold it together

I have been sitting in the waiting room. One of the couples staying at the lodge were also here for treatment. She fell in the waiting room. Her husband said she was experiencing some numbness in her foot that was making it hard to stand or walk. After they called dad back we began to talk. His wife started with breast cancer some years ago. A few months after they told her she was cancer free, she began to have some more problems. Further testing revealed it had spread to her lungs and lymph nodes around her bronchial area. After trying to do chemo again she started having severe headaches and more testing showed it had spread to her brain. They are now trying to do radiation but can not pin point the exact area because about 20 years ago this lady had a brain anneurism and has a metal clip in her head. Therefore they can not do an MRI. Wow. Her husband said in the last 6 months she has really went downhill and he doesn't really expect her to make it another 3 months. We also talked about losing a loved one suddenly compared to this. I was doing everything I could to hold it together when they brought his wife out. Whew. The conversation ended abruptly which was probably a good thing because I really don't know how much more I could handle without losing it. In my mind I guess this whole treatment plan ends in April, but the more I talk to people, the more I realize, it probably won't. shannon